It is such an ugly monster. I hate it. It’s such a toxic feeling that has immense power. It’s powerful enough to take over your senses, your mind, your heart. It can consume you if you let it. Like this morning, when my boyfriend told me ****, (whutever!) I could feel the green monster creeping up to my heart. I felt this twisting in my gut, it’s such a horrible feeling and I don’t even know why I’m being paranoid (well, he's mine...now) So I don’t know what it is. Am I just being territorial? So I just listened to him patiently with my angered feeling. But inside, I was sad. Sooo awful...I don’t want to be paranoid again. I don’t want to feel this nagging pain in my heart. He quite known me to be somewhat possesive though, and I’m trying really hard right now to think differently...
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