inspirational thought for today

Wisdom is the right use of knowledge.
To know is not to be wise.
Many men know a great deal, and are all
the greater fools for it.
There is no fool so great as the knowing fool.
But to know how to use knowledge is to have
wisdom.

Charles H. Spurgeon

nostalgic recall

I happen to go in a clinic just another block from where I live here for a check up. I'm feeling dizzy maybe because of my nightshift work. While inside the clinic, I observed those things that I remember I'm afraid of, those needles, injections, etc! Wheew!

Anyway, when I was in elementary, we were required to undergo a yearly physical examination. We went to this clinic in school, and what I remember most was the smell, it’s as if I could still smell the distinct scent of the room. I also remember there were 3 exam tables in the room, where we would lie down to be examined. There was the letter board to test your vision, and there was that wooden slabs used to open the mouth to check the tonsils, remember those? I don’t know what it is, but I’m having a nostalgic feeling about that clinic. It’s like when I think about it, flashbacks from my elementary days begin to flood my brain. I enjoyed primary school. I really did!

stiff neck

I was having a typical sunday evening last night surfin' the net and preparing my things for mondays work when suddenly my neck aches so much that when I move it sideward, I felt it would break and my tears would fall. This signals me to go to sleep earlier than the usual. At dawn I struggle to move my neck, it still aches..ggrrree, I was thinking of having a sick leave but mondays are busy days and a lot of things to prepare, it makes me pissed off! What a life...

bored?

I was doing the groceries the other day and the line at the cashier was so long, I was really bored. So again, I busied myself by looking around and trying to pick things to ponder on. I used to like to people watch. I look at other people doing their own business, I try to look at their facial expressions, try to wonder what kind of day they had, that kind of stuff. Aside from people, sometimes I also look at things. I looked at the chocolate displays over by the counter and wished I had a whole stock of them at home, (chocs addict! love 'em...) my gaze fell upon the huge walnuts at one corner, I recognized the celebrity on the cover of the magazine on the stand, my eye caught the receipt printer over by the cashier, and so on and so forth.

Actually, if you’re bored you can do this and waiting wouldn’t actually be that bad. Before I knew it, it’s already my turn in the cashier.

i think i'm paranoid...

It is such an ugly monster. I hate it. It’s such a toxic feeling that has immense power. It’s powerful enough to take over your senses, your mind, your heart. It can consume you if you let it. Like this morning, when my boyfriend told me ****, (whutever!) I could feel the green monster creeping up to my heart. I felt this twisting in my gut, it’s such a horrible feeling and I don’t even know why I’m being paranoid (well, he's mine...now) So I don’t know what it is. Am I just being territorial? So I just listened to him patiently with my angered feeling. But inside, I was sad. Sooo awful...
I don’t want to be paranoid again. I don’t want to feel this nagging pain in my heart. He quite known me to be somewhat possesive though, and I’m trying really hard right now to think differently...