insomnia

I hate insomnia, not because it doesn’t put me into sleep despite the fact that I’m tired, but because it puts me into a state of reminiscing memories I know I couldn’t bring back. I wish I could drive insomnia away. Not so I can dream well, but to save my pillow from being drowned by my tears.

a friends death

I guess that no matter how you try to escape from thinking of death, it can just pops up suddenly and shock you of a very sad reality in life especially when it comes unexpectedly and take a young friend of yours.

We unconsciously anticipate the death of people around us when they grow older. Nature does prepare us and to face our old people death along with preparing them as well to face it. At some point our bodies became so worn out that it can't handle to stay alive, but it comes in steps, in years of preparation where we learn to accept our destinies.

Unfortunately, it doesn't go naturally everytime. Sometimes, a young person dies. Just like this, suddenly, and before any previous alarm. No preparation at all. No signs of weakness, no sickness, nothing. Just some hopes, and dreams for a better future. To live happily for a long time to come.

All has been stripped away off with my childhood friend. I have received then a news a couple of month ago about her battling cancer. It was a late diagnosis...but she had still get to have an operation. Without any alarm. She is gone.

Eventhough I haven't seen her since I've arrived here, I can feel that she had lived a life full of happiness. I've missed her so much, she's my playmate, my acquaintance, a dear friend, a sister... and it really shocked me. It is hard to believe that someone can just leave this life suddenly especially when you know the person. I am sure it is even harder to believe on with her parents and siblings. May God help them in this crisis.

May she rest in peace.

the year of the ox

1913, 1925, 1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997, 2009

The second animal who arrived was the serious, enduring and hard-working Ox. The OX year is a conservative year, one of traditions and values. This is not a year to be outrageous. A slow but steady year. This OX year will bring stability and growth where patience and diligence pays off. January 26 is the start of the new year of the ox!
People Born in the Year of the OX are patient, stable, strong, dutiful, reliable, tenacious, practical, industrious, determined, honest, loyal, sincere, persevering and down to earth and tolerant. They can sometimes be lonely but they form firm bonds with home and family. The OX people cherish their private lives and are not usually very adventurous. They can be loners. They know the way to succeed is by a slow, steady, sustained effort. They tend, however, to be eccentric, and bigoted, and they anger easily. They have fierce tempers and although they speak little, when they do they are quite eloquent. Ox people are mentally and physically alert. Generally easy-going, they can be remarkably stubborn, and they hate to fail or be opposed. OX people are great traditionalists, they like the familiar. They are most compatible with Snake, Rooster, and Rat people.

***wikepedia

Kung Hei Fat Choi!

whats new?

mon (jan 18)-
work till 8pm, no time for internet
tue (jan 19)-
work till 8pm, no time for internet
wed (jan 20)-
work till 8pm, no time for internet
thu (jan 21)-
work till 5pm, went to Namoon market for additional items in my baggage and got home by 9:30pm, check e-mails but no internet service...
fri (jan 22)-
work till 5pm, went home early to sort my groceries, clothes, etc, went to a tailor's shop to cut short my 4 pants (too long for me) and fixed baggage to be sent home, no internet service again!
sat (jan 23)-
work till 5:30, went home early, got my cut pants, have an overseas call to my father I haven't greeted yesterday (it was his birthday and I am so buzy taping the jumbo box), went to Namoon market again for strolling with my housemate here (snow is heavy falling and I forgot to bring my cam but in the end, we just take pictures when we got home, internet service now resumed!
sun (jan 24)-
holiday till the 27th, chinese new year here, sleep until 10:00 am, updating...

in a hurry

I was into panic shopping this last week because I have to prepare my 3rd box to be sent in my home country...(I'm going home this march). So as it ends up, our room is a bit mess here, there's no ample space for my groceries so I have decided to just set it all aside here (sorry guys, I'll occupy your space for the mean time...peace!).

I still have yet to fix the jumbo box by next week...Whewww! I am so excited!

life's journey...

I have been partly depressed the last week...I'm not going into details but I do believe that in life, there are lots of lessons to be learned and lots of experiences that will teach us valuable lessons.
In matters of the heart, we learn that maybe, just maybe… we need to go through the wrong people first in order to find the right one. In relationships, we learn that maybe we need to break up to grow up. In friendships, we learn that not everyone you consider a friend will stick with you till the end. In life, we learn that something special is taken away from us to give way to something much better.
Life is a journey… and in that journey, somehow, we learn all kinds of lessons. Through all that, we laugh, we cry, we stumble and fall, but we get up and move on. That’s life… and everything that goes along with it. It’s an amazing journey isn't it? And we only have to give meaning and importance to our life... So you just have to enjoy the ride!

happy three kings

click the link for facts:

http://www.geneseo.edu/~jdp12/threekingsday.htm

having faith and acceptance

It’s amazing the peace of mind you get when you’ve come to terms with acceptance. It’s amazing how clear things become when you’ve opened your heart to the inevitable. In life, you’ll never get everything you want. Your maturity and strength as a person are not measured by the number of victories you acquire but in your willingness to admit defeat when you know you’ve lost.
Oftentimes, we are given problems and dilemmas that will test our ability to deal with life. It’s difficult to accept things that give us pain and suffering. But acceptance is not merely ‘admitting defeat’ or ‘ceasing to fight’ or ’surrendering’. When you look at it in a much bigger perspective, it’s actually embracing the truth and welcoming the bittersweet fact that there is a reason why these things have to happen to us when they do. It’s especially difficult when you don’t see that “reason”, and you feel so miserable… but once your heart is really open for acceptance, you have to have faith too — that God has a plan, and that there is something else waiting for you.

things to be thankful

I've got to encounter a lot of difficulties right now but come to think of it...there's a saying, "Count Your Blessings..." and that makes me think I am lucky... :)

To be thankful for more than just these.

1. The love of my family.
2. Having a roof over my head because, so many have been losing theirs.
3. My feast, that I've slaved over all day.
4. The job I have, that helps pay the bills.
5. Having a day to just enjoy.
6. Smiling as I watch my environment.
7. Opening the door to people I haven't seen in years.
8. Can't wait to tell the holidays are over.
9. Remembering that this holiday comes around once a year....be happy! And,
10. To thank God that I've seen another holiday come and go.

post christmas party exchange gifts and new year celebration (room 201 gurls)

...just a glimpse of our exchange gifts that happens in the early morning of new years day!

-it's never too late right?

new beginnings...