my music, my life...

I’ve always been a MUSIC lover. Music has always been a part of my life. I’ve included songs here because I want to share with you guys my favorites. Some of these songs have very special meaning to me, some of them I just enjoy the melody, and some I think just fits the theme of this blog.

I’ve always felt that life would be extremely dull without music. For me, music magnifies emotions. It soothes the soul. It makes the world go round. I know some of you might think I’m a being a bit melodramatic about this, but it’s true. For me, music is capable of complementing my mood or state of mind at one particular moment. And it’s a big help too. So if you’re feeling a bit nostalgic or sad, add some mellow music. If you’re feeling groovy, add some hip-hop or dance music. If you’re feeling a bit adventurous or chaotic, add some rock music. Regardless of what genre or style of music there is, I believe music really makes the world a more fun and interesting place to live. Wouldn’t you agree?

Anyway, enough of my chatter. All I really want to say is, music is my life. And I wanted it to be part of this blog...keep jammin'!

happy holidays...!

christmas is coming!

Christmas is just around the corner, and everyone is excitedly awaiting the holidays. Christmas is probably my favorite holiday, not just because it’s Christ’s birthday, but because the whole season is so festive and cheerful, not to mention magical. Before, when I was working in the office, (hmmm, I miss paper works!) the whole team is planning for a Christmas party. I do like it when the whole company celebrates with a bang. I’d like to see Christmas decorations, gift giving, corporate holiday cards, Christmas carols… you get the point... Anyway, It’s 2 days away, but I can’t wait for Christmas to come along and here we get to celebrate! Advance Merry Christmas everyone!

losers...weepers

Life can be so unfair sometimes ... or yeah maybe almost all the time. When you try to do the right things...you’ll find out that somebody else took advantage and got ahead of you by doing the opposite. You find yourself thinking a lot of times and wondering why it has to happen to you when you know you’re on the right path doing the right thing. I really hope that what goes around comes around two times harder! Sometimes I honestly get tempted to get even and do something that will make the person realize what they did was wrong...but still ‘karma’ comes to mind. And sometimes it makes me think that if karma is true, then maybe I did something wrong in the past that I deserved the bad things happening to me...or what is it really? I don’t get it. You play the good person, someone else plays bad. You do something bad and you still lose sometimes. We'll, I guess that’s life…so I hope those people that did me wrong are now losers, ‘cause if not I should not feel like one now. Well at least I have my pride in doing the right thing as consolation... :p

10 reasons why i love the winter season

There are many reasons to enjoy the Winter season even if you are not a cold weather person. I have listed a few of the things that I love the most about Winter...

1. I love a hot steaming bowl of homemade macaroni soup on a bitterly cold Winter evening.
2. I love watching children playing in the snow and listening to their cheerful laughter.
3. I love spending Christmas with my friends here, eating a festive meal together and exchanging gifts. It's a time when we can all gather and share precious moments together.
4. I love drinking a tall glass of delicious ice cold coffee by a warm blazing fire.
5. I love spending time with my friends inside when it's too cold to be outside, playing a board game, watching a movie or working on just everything together.
6. I love drinking a large mug of hot chocolate on a cold and snowy Winter night.
7. I love waking up to a bright sunny Winter morning and seeing ice glistening on the tree branches after an overnight snowfall.
8. I love the beauty of nature in Winter with its crisp fresh snow, glittering icicles and delicate white snowflakes.
9. I love the shorter days in Winter and being able to catch up on my sleep. And lastly...
10. I love playing in the snow, building a snowman, making a snow angel and having a snowball fight...although its really pretty cold outside...grrrrrr!

"weeeepeeee....!"

snow fallin'

frens...who are they?

A simple word isn’t it? It’s uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to.

Now I know that friends aren’t that, they’re the people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They’re the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don’t judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You’re tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but sweetest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.

it's sicks to be sick!

It was Saturday morning that I have felt pain in my throat. I was night shift working before that so I think it's because of the cold weather. I remember walking back to back at midnight from one building to another in our company because of work. Then on Sunday night, I felt fever in the evening. I immediately take one tablet for fever and one capsule of antibiotic. That's what I always take whenever I feel something bad in my health. In the morning, I still manage to go to work but I can't hardly speak and in the afternoon, I decided to join my other big sisters here to go eye shopping. We ate pizza that time and I remember also drinking a really really cold orange juice (I'm quite pasaway,hehe!) and that worsen my condition, I think so! The next morning, Tuesday, I still get to work, but because of what I've done yesterday, you can't hardly understand what I say so I decided to not speak at all. In the afternoon, I really cough a lot...know why because I have to go outside which is cold and then I have to go inside which is hot, so I think it really affects my case. In the end, I have permitted to go home by 5pm to have a check up. I instantly went to the hospital and given some medications, I remember the doctor saying about giving me intravenous medications but I immediately said that I would just prepare to have oral medications. I fear needles OK! And now... I feel I really can't get to work, so I'm just here in my bed all day, resting...

And that's when I remember my mother, I used to be a sick kid when I was child... and that's what I miss of her, taking special care of me...

my stuffed toys... keep me companied!

When we were young, most of us were given stuffed toys. Since then, I started collecting these cute stuffed animals that now almost filled my room bed back home. Some of them were given to me by my relatives and friends, some I've got as a presents and some I bought for myself.

We held those stuffed toys in our arms wherever we went, and we refused to let them go. It almost felt as though that special toys was our protector, defending us from the evils of the world.

tagpi in 'd hauz...!

I still have my stuffed toys from when I was younger. They remind me of all the fond memories I used to have when I was a child. Also, if I'm feeling sad or angry, simply hugging one of my toys relieves me of those emotions.
Stuffed animals can be helpful stress relievers. If you've just had an argument with your partner, or you've run into financial difficulty, you sometimes need that special comforting hug that'll make you feel better. Granted, a simple hug won't make all of your problems go away, but it'll certainly give you the strength and confidence you need to take them on.
You know, it surprises me to see many people classify stuffed animals as "kiddy-toys." Just because you like to give your special stuffed toys a squeeze every once in a while doesn't make you any less of an adult than anyone else. The people who discriminate against others by arguing that "Stuffed animals are childish and adults shouldn't own them" are the same people who resent other types of people due to race, gender or religion.
So if you still have your old stuffed toys, don't throw it away, and definitely don't give it away. And if you don't have stuffed toys, considering buying one. Because whether you need a companion, or just someone to listen to your thoughts, your stuffed animals will be always be there for you.

nostalgic feeling

Just the other day, I was tinkering with my digital camera and browsing through the pictures I’ve taken in the past months. I was stung with nostalgia as I looked at the pictures and relived every moment. I love taking pictures, especially of moments that are worth remembering. Pictures, for me, are timeless representations of the past that can never be rewound. Anyway, I realized I already have a lot of pictures stored in my digicam. I have got to buy a compact flash that has a bigger capacity coz mine is nearly full!

4 years of "intimate" friendship

WOW! Today, it's been officially our 4 years of up and down, twist and turn, on and off, peace and war... err desperate relationship! It's time for celebration but... uhmm, hey! were supposed to be blowing our anniv cake, too bad I'm so far away here hugging falling leaves, falling snowflakes and a very cool winter weather! Obviously, long distance relationship is a matter of faith, loyalty, trust and more trust (did I say trust?) and we've made it (think so, whut d'ya think?). I feel like I wanna listen to Shania Twain's "STILL THE ONE", well the lyrics are just like that!

If I would tell you our story... well, its going to be 4 years of me detailing each day... and this post will run out of characters ...!

my new book

Hey! I've got my "Twilight" book already! Its the book everyone is crazy for! I have just bought it a while ago from Libro shop. My friends and I have just attended a mass and went strolling when I have decided to take a peek there. First, it wasn't in my mind to go there because I don't have a book to hunt for, but since the shop was just nearby the cosmetics shop in which my friend was busy looking for girl something and to make my time running, I decided to have a visit there. Its been a long while since I've been there because we have internet connection in our room. I really don't have an idea what to look for but suddenly I remember my cousin telling me about the Twilight movie. It has been first based in a book so I hurriedly look for it and luckily, I have found it! Did I mention before that I have always wanted to watch that movie but I don't have time?

Now my problem is - what should I do first? Read the book or watch the movie? Somebody help...!

i want...

i am sitting here thinking about life, wondering if i will ever truly get out of life what i want.

i want to travel the world.

i want my parents to be taken care of and never have to worry about bills again.

i want to write a book and have it published. i have my own bucket list just like in the movie (and just like my blog), but i am so afraid that i will never get to have those experiences that i want. i am afraid that i am going to let life pass me by and never just live in the moment.

i want to dance in the rain.

i want to not care what everybody thinks about me.

i want to be fearless, i don't want to worry about every little thing in life.

i want to be free. i don't want to feel chained down.

i want to let the house be messy and not have to worry about it (hehe).

i want to spend the whole day in bed reading and just peeking at our pictures taken here.

i want to miss a day of work and not be sick or too tired to do anything.

i want to see the world and like what i see.

i want the world to see me and like what they see.

i want.....

my daily horoscope says...

Out of my curiosity, I've checked my horoscope at Yahoo.com... and this is what it says -

Leo: Daily Overview
Saturday, November 29, 2008 Provided by Astrology.com

Daily Overview for November 29, 2008 (Today)
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Leo
7/23 – 8/22
The past is coming back, but not to haunt you -- to thrill you! Enjoy memory lane.

Overview:
Your fiery energy is pushing you to explore more of the world -- and you can't help but get out there and check things out! Friends and family can follow along, but you are definitely leading the way!

As I read the first part...it really catched my attention! You know, past no matter how good or bad is already past...I'm not really a believer of such kind until it happens, but atleast it gives me guides and hints of what will happen soon.
What's going back? What's gonna happen? To thrill me...? Well, wait and see...

when?

One big problem I have now is I miss my friends back in the Philippines. I'm really not the type of person who have so many peers. But I can say that my friends are really friend. Most of them are my college friends, co-employees before and my cousins (bonding with my cousins is really fun because it always feel like a family reunion)... I'm supposed to be with them back home, I'm supposed to be going out to the mall with them on a bored day, shopping and eating with girl friends, watching movies or dvd's and etc.

Here, I should be going online for friendster, chatting and updating my blog ( I was really too buzy I can't update my blog)...but the past week is really terrible, the amount of my phone card is slowly increasing cause I find myself calling them and talking for so long. I wanted to enjoy this coming weekend but instead I ended up working. I'ts been great, no doubt! BUT...

• i have yet to developed my scheduled 150 pieces of picture in my SD card
• i have yet to buy my monthly groceries and supplies ( I'm running out of stocks, gosh!)
• i have yet to wash my soo soooo loaded recycle bin of unwashed clothes
• i have yet to eat to Burger King and order my as usual value meal with mexican wing and my always take out dessert of 2 pieces of my sooo favorite cherry apple pie
• i have yet want to eat to Sorento and Pizzeria Italiana for my pasta and pizza syndrome
• i have yet to go to Seoul for my monthly remmitance
• i have yet to watch the new "in" movie in the Phillippines "TWILIGHT", my daily scheduled episode of SURVIVOR PHILIPPINES, the weekly scheduled episode of THE AMAZING RACE ASIA 3...(I'm in the final episode already) and the new fantaseries of GMA network "LUNA MYSTIKA"
• i have yet want to go to Skin Resort for facial massage
• i have yet to upload pictures in my friendster account
• i have yet to buy my sister a pair of white Converse shoes for her birthday (her color request)...I'm thinking if I would want to buy a new pair also for my "united colors of shoes", hehe!
• and did I mention updating my blog...?

Whoaa...! So many things to do with so little time! Yay!

a walk 2 remember...?

My friend and I had accidentally found out that the nearest mall to our house had their christmas decorations already set but both of us did'nt have our cameras, good thing is that she had brought her other mobile phone which has a memory card so we end up using that one.

The following day, she told me she checked our pictures, the pictures were quite blurred and the quality of color is not that good considering we just use a cellphone.

The other day she told me that she would go there again to meet one of her batchmates so I decided to joined her again... and this time we both have our own cameras for sure!

false alarm

My cousin send me 2 messages to my friendster account last week. The first message is about his new contact number and the second one is about something that makes my heart beat so fast, he wants me to call him because he has something to tell me. I hurriedly dialed his new number... I was really nervous that time and I kept on thinking and hoping that everything is fine back home! My hands are really shaking that I can't dialled the number correctly. I also overheard my housemates calling me but my mind is too busy correcting the number I was dialling. In the end, I can't connect to his number so I decided to just call my other cousin. She answered my call but in a quiet way like she was so sad... so I guess something is wrong! My first question is how's the situation there. Suddenly her voice began to have volume and she had told me that she is watching a movie in a theater so she just went outside for me to hear her clear. (sigh) Then, I told him about my cousin's message to me and she said that she knows that he had his number change because his mobile phone had been lost. (another sigh). And so I asked if everything is OK back in our house and she said that everything's fine there. After that call, I was relieved! I now hurriedly try to call my cousin and finally he answered my call. And so the conversation started that lasted for about 45 minutes with some other details. The message he wants to tell me is that my sister is now a regular employee of UCC Coffee Cafe Terrace, a coffee shop located in Manila. (that's good news). Actually my sister told me before that UCC's main branch is here in Korea but she hadn't told last night about her promotion, hmmmm? Anyways, I thank God that He really really take good care of my loved ones with blessings! Love You Jesus!

sisterhood

I was checking my e-mails last night when my sister's messaging account pop at once. She's on-line! How come? She doesn't have a personal computer in her boarding house in Manila and its already 10:00 in the evening! I did not know if she's still in duty because I don't know her schedule or maybe she's just spending her time somewhere else... so I immediately send her a message and she hurriedly replied back. I asked if where was she at that time and told me that she was with her friend who has a computer... we talked for some 1 hour because I haven't really talked to her for almost 3 months and I don't know anything of her situation right now because she had no mobile phone. She told me she wants to have one but she feels like its not necessary for her to have this time. Sometimes, I missed those times that were hanging out together. Before, we always had a fight when we were still a child, but now... were OK, you know, like a friend, sharing ideas (she will laugh at me when she reads this). Of course she's my sister and we're only 2 siblings, I haven't realized before that it feels good when you have a sister, its like you have someone close to your blood.

so boring...

Weekdays! I just spent my whole 2 days inside our room (quite boring isn't it?!). Well, actually... I don't know what to write to... so here I am, juggling for words.

Life now here is a bit slowing down because of the global crisis Korea is facing through, and I know other countires are affected too. My housemates have gone outside and I have my own business too! So I'm left here all alone nothing to do but to surf the net and watch movies. I feel so lazy today maybe because of the weather, i'ts a bit cold now outside and soon its going to be much colder as winter season is fast approaching. At almost 5:00 in the afternoon here looks like its 7:00 in the evening, so night time is much longer than day time.

I feel homesick now, so I just finished calling my someone and "sometwo" (just kidding, I know if he'll ever read this part...its going to be WWW III... err IV, V??, hehe!) in the Philipines using my 23 minutes left in my phonecard, you know just a little chit chat here and there to atleast brighten my mood.
My life is so confusing now, but whose isn't? Today was boring, and tonight will be boring as I am accompanied by boring movies and nothing else...

pinoy fear factor vs survivor philippines

VS

It was rumored that this ABS CBN’s new reality game show would the biggest rival for GMA’s Survivor Philippines in terms of TV Ratings for local reality game shows.

According to Wikipedia:
“Fear Factor was an American stunt/dare reality game show. It was originally created by Endemol Netherlands in the Netherlands and first aired on June 11, 2001.”

I first heard of this Fear Factor thing back then when it was aired on international TV screens (more precisely to those viewing with cables) where contestants where making some of the greatest challenges which can outcome their personal fears.

I can't forget the part when one white Caucasian contestants have to be poured over with mice...(eeww! I really don't like that!). Their other challenges is to eat "balut" (chicken embryo), its one of the Philippine's exotic delicacies. It's disgusting for them but you know, its full of protein.

Ryan Agoncillo was chosen to be the host of this said new reality game show.

Check here for more info:
ABS CBN’s Pinoy Fear Factor
Pinoy Fear Factor List of Contestants (Doce Participantes)
Will ABS CBN’s Pinoy Fear Factor get the local viewer’s interest for this upcoming reality game show? Or GMA’s Survivor Philippines will continue it’s supremacy in local reality game show? Answers are coming very soon…

miss poetic

A good day today...I miss myself so much! And I miss reading poems too. I've had this fascination since I was 15 that I started collecting simple poems in high school...uhmmm 'till now! Once I like it, I will keep and saved it. Too bad, I did not bring my forfolio as I badly wanted too! I have put it all in a clear book for me to read it over and over again! And when I got home last February, its the first thing that I asked to my parents if they take good care of my belongings! That's how sacred I am with things! So since I'm loving it, I will try to posts some of my most readable and favorite poems.

Here's a lovely poem I want to share with! I have read and kept it before. Good thing is that I haven't erased this poem in my e-mail's inbox because I have some being sent through the net and some I haved searched long days now. And since its November... its the month that we remember our loved ones that already passed away, this one really touches my heart! Read on:

When tomorrow starts without me

When tomorrow starts without me

and I’m not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,

all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,

the way you did today,

while thinking of the many things,

we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me,

as much as I love you,

and each time that you think of me,

I know you’ll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,

please try to understand,

that an Angel came and called my name,

and took me by the hand,

and said my place was ready,

in heaven far above,

and that I’d have to leave behind,

all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,

a tear fell from my eye,

for all life, I’d always thought,

I didn’t want to die.

I had so much to live for,

so much yet to do,

it seemed almost impossible,

that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,

the good ones and the bad,

I thought of all the love we shared,

and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,

just even for awhile,

I’d say goodbye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,

that this could never be,

for emptiness and memories,

would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,

I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did,

my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven’s gates,

I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me,

from His great golden throne,

He said, “This is eternity, and all I’ve promised you.

Today for life on earth is past,

but here it starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,

but today will always last,

and since each day’s the same day,

there’s no longing for the past.

But you have been so faithful,

so trusting and so true.

Though there were times you did some things,

you knew you shouldn’t do.

But you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.

So won’t you take my hand and share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,

don’t think we’re far apart,

for every time you think of me,

I’m right here, in your heart.

bonded...together

Hmmmm... I wonder we haven't clean up our fridge! As we approach "All Saint's Day", these happens... unexpectedly!

starts with

and

followed by

with

and end up...

its me taking their pictures... and its already 4:30 in the morning!
need to say more...

haunted refrigarator night

'Twas the night before Halloween and inside our fridge, something was stirring among our plates, tuppewares and pans!
Hmmm?! When was the last time we cleaned out our fridge? There are evil and scary things growing among our leftover containers! As we prepare for the scariest night of the year, I think it's time to show’em what we’re made of by emptying the fridge of all that is unholy inside...Guys, shall we start? Err... where are they?!

scare-me-not!

Halloween is celebrated annually on October 31. It's a season in which everybody is preparing for their costumes for the trick or treat surprise. But for me, well...kin'da just don't do it with me, uhmm...me, having my wide imagination, just don't "BOO!" me OK!
This, I wanna share cause I think I found this funny for this month's celebration...some short funny horror bloopers I encountered with my housemates and friends here: trick or treat!

• the tv- it was one of my ate's (older sister) birthday but I came too late there that only my one ate is up there, they are all gone because they went to the net cafe. So I just ate myself alone, then my ate loaded a movie for me to watch. She told me that they have watched it already but she did'nt tell me what's the title and the sypnosys. I started to ate and my eyes started to stare at the monitor, the movie sounds gruesome at the start huh! I called my ate because I want to know the story but she just said that I should just watch. I know now, the movie is horror so the moment my ate went to the bathroom, I beg her to stay with me but she have to go the bathroom, so I'm so helpless and instead I just hit the paused button until she came back. After watching the movie, she now teased me! I can't go downstairs, so I asked her to come with me till I reached our room. That's how scared I am and that's the start how they always teased and play with me here.

• the pc- so my housemates got her brand new personal desk top computer. It was the first in our room, so for months we have our internet access before I finaly decided to bought my laptop. She shares it with us, we also watch online movies there. One evening, I ask her to play one Filipino horror movies, she insist knowing that I'm a bit scary but I protest...I don't know, I think I just want to watch that specific movie being curious about the trailer I have watched. She plays it, so we watched...the first part is not that really scary the fact that she's with me watching too (that's good). In the middle of the movie, she said that she would just have to buy fresh chicken outside. I hurriedly stand being affected now, I don't know, maybe because of the movie or imagining me being alone! She laugh, she knows! And so, again... I click the pause button and I waited for her to come back again. Oh, silly me!

• the door - I went to one of my ate's (older sister) room to borrow some cd's. I was actually hearing something inside as I approach the door, but I did'nt bother about it though I'm feeling that there's something wrong. The noise inside subside so I push the doorbell's botton but it took it sometime for someone to open it. I push again the doorbell and I hear someone went to open it. The door just actually glide, not the same thing when I always went and give them a buzz, they open it wide! So, I just relax myself but deep inside I know there's something wrong now, I quietly open the door through while calling their names...I'm really tensed now cause no one is answering. One more push and there...to my shock, I saw a girl just blurred in my sight cause I don't know where to look at with her long hair covering her whole face that you can just only see her one eye (just like "the eye" movie). I don't know what to do so I just scream running to nowhere and then I just hear them laughing...their making fun of me! I knew it! I really really knew it!

• the light- to have some privacy, I used our bathroom while calling someone. But this one particular evening, I decided to go ouside and went just at the side of our room which is near the elevator and the stairs not knowing that something will happen. The sensor light of the building only lasted for a minute so you have to move again for the light to switched open again. I sat on the 3rd level of the stairs and began to dial. I started my conversation and the sensor light begin to fade (Its okay, I'm just near our room). My eyes went up and down while talking on the phone, I remain calm. As my eyes accidentally fixed my stare upstairs, I notice a little light, I thought it was just a firefly. I stare at it for a second but I felt my feet is cold now! The light now went into a circular motion, then it stops then went diagonal, and in zigzag motion...I froze! I quietly stand while still talking on the phone as if someone is with me. I tiptoed a little and after nearly reaching the front of our room, I hear a loud laugh, like the one in the horror movies. That time I almost run and I start to scream upon reaching the doorknob. My one housemates heared me screamed so she ran towards me. After that loud laugh, I hear a familiar voice calling me through that stairs...it was my kuya Ronnie (older brother). I did'nt know that he was there visiting my ate (his wife) and he was just taking a cigarrete smoke out there. Knowing I was there and it was a bit dark, he scared me. Funny huh!

guess who's back?

After 4 days, at around 11pm here (10pm phils time), while working in night shift...I didn't notice I have received a text message. And guess what, he's asking if I'm still mad and he just want to have some excuse about our last misunderstanding. Think he just can't really live without me (now I'm being conceited)! Well, well...I haven't replied or called him yet, I still don't know what to say! It really made me upset the last time, I do also have some problems to think about... I think this is just so common to all girls...finding the right time and words to settle things up!

understanding love and pain

Sorry for the bad editing, I'm just having my jitters because of my mix emotions the last time, I have to separate this post to my lasts post...this is some kind of a motivation! We badly need that sometimes...and preferably when discussing feelings! Well gurls, this is it!
Love is a beautiful experience. Yes, it will always bring pain and God knows what else… but it also brings joy and a feeling of being complete that none of us can ever explain or fathom. In my experience, I’d rather have love and lost, than never to have loved at all. I’ve experienced pain, but I’ve also experienced happiness beyond compare. And I’ll never trade that happiness for anything. I am who I am now not only because of the positive moments that happened in my life, but essentially because of the bad moments too. We experience these painful moments so we could well appreciate the good moments. Experience the bad, to appreciate the good. God allows these things to happen, He allows our hearts to be broken, so we would GROW. Every time we feel pain, He’s on the works, He’s working on us to make us better persons.
The same is true with love, without love, we will never be complete. Love makes the world go round, love is the force that keeps us innately good. I wouldn’t blame love for the pain it brings, nor will I hold a grudge against it for the misery it caused, instead I will thank God for it. We get wounds from it, but those wounds will heal if we allow God to heal them. But it’s not like magic that poof! it’s all healed. It will start from us too, FORGIVENESS and ACCEPTANCE are the keys to healing. Pain is just but a reminder, that we have lessons to learn, joys to look forward to, and a God to go to in times of need. Don’t be scared of pain and love because it’s part of LIFE. Grieve from it, get angry at it, but don’t be consumed by bitterness because of it. Instead, learn from it and use it to become the best person you can be.

lq

I just can't understand myself now...I'm so upset, we have this little misunderstanding a while ago that makes me confuse right now...maybe, I'll just give him some time now! I know...he's been so depressed lately...
It do happens to us sometimes like other relationships too...but we believe that we can't never start a new day without settling our little petty quarrel!

ouchhh! it hurts...

I have a bad headache today...I guess because of the changing weather. Winter chill is coming and my body defense system is not that actually good! I often feel cold and now I can't even type continuously because I feel that my head is like going to explode. I have already taken 2 capsules but I think it takes time now for the medicines to effect! I feel like I want to vomit but I have to control it (mind over matter). I have just finished putting on pain ointment around my forehead to at least ease the pain for sometime and hope that by tomorrow I'm gonna be OK...

all work and no money!

I've just recently updated my passbook to check how many earnings do I still have. As it turns out, almost 1/4 of my monthly salary has been left... I know, I've spent so much last month like shopping here, shopping there... travel here, travel there and I know when I got hungry or I'm dying and craving to eat something...I'll really really run at once to some fast food chains and eat myself out and I don't care! At least, I'm not hungry anymore!

I've already handed out my cash share to my housemates earlier last month (we do this monthly), and I remember, I bought 1 bag from Nike because I really really like it, bought new t-shirt from Levi's and got myself a new pair of shoes from Adidas! Some accessories caught my attention (well), and I also bought earlier my personal supplies because I'm running out of stocks... and oh, some facial and body skin care too (that belongs to my budget anyway)! Sometimes you’ll be surprised to suddenly want a thing that you never really needed before. It’s just because you thought it was sooo cute or too nice or very cheap to let pass.

I've already sent also 25% of my salary to my parents in the Philippines and I've got my jumbo package being paid in cash! Uh-oh...think that's really a lot! Money is like magic...the first minute, you can feel it in your hands...and in just one wink, it's all gone. Oh no! I've gots to save now!

bye-bye money!

Anyway, payday is coming and that spells.............................................................S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G! Uhmm, reminds me anyway to save, again!

back at one

OK, since I'm a quite obsessive-compulsive in some things sometimes... I can't sleep over what had happened to my blog. I woke up early this morning (good grief, it's Sunday) to fixed things so that I have more time to finalize it. And it end up like a roller coaster ride! Thanks to my e-mail that I have been able to retrieved some of the sidebar tool, the editing part is the tougher one... although I have the earlier posts being saved, I have to copy-paste it into my new account... and so the tricks goes on... I change my account id and URL's name (just one letter, notice the "s" letter... I change it to "z") but the whole package is there! It's my "same old brand new" blog... yippee!

stupid me

I did a verrrrry stupid thing this week. I have been downloading movies in my laptop, uploading my pictures in friendster and at the same time editing the template of my blog at once, but I didn't notice that there were so many windows open now in the screen so I actually made a mistake to close some...so I did. After reviewing what has been closed, to my horror... I realized that I have closed the one I have been editing without saving it....(ok panic attacks). I've been read-writing it for almost 2 days and that's it! It still makes me mad at myself thinking about that pop up messsage I didnt bother reading at all... I was so confident that I have saved it before, (as I was used to doing so) but after browsing it, found out that the rest was gone...I think I have to start all over again...arrrrrrrrrrgh!

our weekend overnight (the event)

For the continuation... after our night shift work, we are all that tired actually going home for preparation. I remember one incident back then, one of my friend told me "Hey, you're just going to stay there for only 2 days! Looks like you bring your whole closet with you?" I just reply back with a big grin "Yeah, I know... I guess, I just dont wanna miss a thing." So, my WONDER LIST do works for me anyway.
That day, we headed again for a straight travel and with just 7 hours to rest, (but I didn't take the chance to nap at all because all my wide eyes was fixed in the computer and sometimes having a small chat here and there) we have to be there at least before dawn.

We arrive there at about 7:30 almost 8:00 in the evening and their unit is in the 29th floor of the building and we were so welcome there! Their condo-type unit I must say is really spacey and beautiful. What I like most inside is their large window which when you take a look outside, you will see the whole surroundings with tall buildings, highways and flyovers full of cars caught on traffic and since its nightime its nice to see their lights blinking. The building is near the river so its really good to feel that your really on top.
While eating our sumptuose dinner...to my surprise, Mr. Mike, Ate Leah's husband had commented that he had read my blogs and told me that it was interesting. I just commented back that I just wanna express my thoughts and feelings about every situation while laughing(I feel shy at once, my first compliment about my blog. I almost want to tell him that I am a kind'a frustrated writer myself and here is my only chance. Thanks Mr. Mike for that! I appreciate it!)After dinner, the couple told us that there will gonna have a firework show. We were so excited to hear that because its really timing that we were there. The fireworks display lasted for almost an hour and we were all amazed every single minute of it. In between breaks, we had to take a bite of the food there cause it makes us hungry every time we do the oooh's and ahhhh's!
We engage ourselves afterwards into a light drink that we had enjoyed together while watching a movie over their wide and flat screen TV! We sleep over at about 2;30 in the morning almost sleepy but not too drunk at all and I woke up at about 9:30 in the morning almost ready for our breakfast.
Before leaving, we take pictures for remembrance in almost every side and corner of the place...(good thing, I never forgot to bring my ever reliable digital camera...love it!)

pls click the above title (our weekend overnight...) for more photos

a quick list

Tonight, the gang is going to have an overnight weekend visit to one of our friends who is now married. So my mind now is running from nowhere... "I have to plan what things to bring earlier because it's gonna be a Saturday night live fever or else I would end up a crap, ghee!"In a hurried manner, my hands automatically wrote in a single piece of scratch paper all my necessary needs to be brought and here it is:

I need to do this list or else I would be like a racing marathon running here and there gathering and picking up all my things because there is no time left and still I forget something (I remember that, a buzzer beater one). So, hope this works for me!

they've got...package!

After finally sorting and organizing all my stuff and things here inside a big jumbo box for 1 week... soon its going to arrive in the Philippines. First, its really hard fixing up all of my belongings since I've been abroad for almost 2 years and a half now!
I've already sent 1 jumbo box before my vacation got approved in February, but still I have plenty of err...scrap left here! To name, I still have here some of my old clothes I didn't wear anymore, thick and thin jacket (for fall, winter and spring seasons), bags and accessories, shoes, my half body size Duzing, (my teddy Bear's name which I got from here who's still not washed that's why I called him that way) and Oh... I'm planning to take home also one my small cabinet here because I like its color, old green (which matches the color paint of my room and looks good inside though!).
Anyway, my housemate here helped me packed it up because its really huge for me to tape it all by myself. But in the end, it was a success (wheew!)

into reality

And speaking of reality! I am lately been addicted into watching reality TV shows...basically because its the real thing and the real drama is there! Although some parts are scripted, still you can see their behavior and attitude on every situation. Here are my list of some of my favorite reality series that I have watched and being watched as of this present time:

1. The Amazing Race Asia Season 2 - Well, this was last years edition wherein the Philippine team compose of Marc Nelson and Rovilson Fernadez got the 3rd place (sad to say), but it was fun watching them racing like there were never had a dull moments with them! I'm laughing all by myself like I was crazy because these two people really have humors!
2. The Amazing Race Asia Season 3 - And now, this is this years season of this really amazing race. Tisha Silang and Geoff Rodriguez would be the competing dating couple from the Philippines. Looks likes the race is much tougher this time...hope they bag home the title. But for me, travelling from one country to another is the price itself, yeah baby!
3. Pinoy Dream Academy Season 2 - This is the latest hit reality show for those who were aspiring to be a singing star. It just ended almost a week ago but it was worth the waiting for whomever who's gonna win...added the fact that Bugoy, one of the scholars is really a comedian...but when he sing, you can tell and feel that he is really an artist.
4. Survivor Philippines - This is the local version of the famous Survivor from the US and it is now in the Philippines. I thought at first that celebrities would participate in this show but when I watched it, they include only ordinary people with different aspects in life. Like for example there was a yaya (nanny), company driver, waiter, mechanic and etc. But in the end, I think this will appeal to all people because all these individuals were really unique in their own way.
5. And so on (more to come)...haha!
   

another long vacation

" the world at the tip of my finger...harharhar!!! "

My 3 days vacation has ended (choosok holiday*)... the 1st day, I spend gallivanting at Lotte World... its a theme park. I remember, I ride only 3-4 rides because I'm kind'a afraid of heights and those tumbling and hanging thing (duhh)! I swear, I feel like I can't breath (ughh)! Anyway, I just enjoy exploring the park plus there was a live stage show there and you know what, there was a Filipino band performer that time. Korean people were amazed by their performance same thing that I also enjoyed it a lot! They sang some two English songs and the rest are Korean hits song! Man, they rock and their good in Korean Language. The next day, I stay inside the house and the first thing I did... sleep, sleep, and sleep because yesterday was really tiring, imagine that I came working from night shift and I go straight ahead to Lotte World! What was that! I've never done that while in the Philippines...but in the afternoon I went outside to unwind and find myself something to eat since I crave for pizza that time (yummy). And now on the 3rd day, again just inside the house... in front of my laptop, looking at our pictures at Lotte World and I busied the rest of the day fixing my Friendster picture uploading and organizing (partially still not fixed) and then after I got bored, I just watched reality series which are quite exciting for me!

*choosok holiday- a Korean special holiday which is celebrated every September 13-15 of this month. Korean people visits their ancestors along with their family to pay tribute to their loved ones. It is also the same as a reunion for them since they gather together and offer wine, fruits and delicacies as a ritual.

on the side of me

Corrine May! Who? Haven't heard her name before... but as I was accidentally browsing music from my resources, (imeem) I'm curious "hmm...what kind of music does she sings?" Then I immediately play one of her songs and there I found out. Her voice was like an angel, and the melody was soothing! I hurried down to find her biography and found out that she's from Singapore and had pursued to study music in the US. What I like most in her album "Beautiful Seed" is the song ON THE SIDE OF ME... It is about a person, despite the imperfections of another person, still choose to love him and stay with him. On the side of me is a song of friendship. A friend who will not leave his friend in times of trouble and misery. A friend who is always with him despite the odds. Who is this friend? He is the one up there. Whatever we do wrong, He will never ever leave and will always forgive us. My blog and I would be living in His purpose. So I even put the lyrics here for me to sing along with...Great!

Album Title: Beautiful Seed

On the Side of Me
Corrine May

I’m not the easiest person to love

I’m often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me On the side of me

Yet you choose to be on the side of me

On the side of me

I’m not too proud of some things

I’ve done in my life

The skeletons in my closet

Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

Blessed Charity You’re on the side of me

On the side of me

(Cause) Everyone needs a friend to hold

When it’s cold outside

And there’s no place to go

Everyone needs a friend to hold

All alone I cried There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared

But you

I’m not the easiest person to love

But you, you’ve opened your heart to show me what I’m worth

‘Cause you choose to be On the side of me

On the side of me

What a mystery You’re on the side of me

On the side of me

(Cause) Everyone needs a friend to hold

When it’s cold outside

And there’s no place to go

Everyone needs a friend to hold

All alone I cried

There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared

Nobody cared

But you…

Yeah you choose to be

On the side of me

On the side of me

This is my RSS (Repeat Song Syndrome) this month in my mp3. I even post it in friendster account as my background music. I just simply love the words and the melody. Try listening to it. Enjoy!
http://imeem.com/people/dAcWOxQ/playlist/mxDPI4JN/on_the_side_of_me_corrine_may_music_playlist

birthday treat

Its luvs' birthday today... so I have decided to prepare a quite special "crema de fruta" treat for him. I have called him earlier about this plan and was so thankful to hear that.

I kind'a quickly prepare this dessert. Hope we're eating this one... together!

How I wish I'm back home for us to celebrate... a nice outing is what I think of like... swimming, (Yipee!) coz I haven't got time to enjoy my 16 days vacation back in the Philippines... (it was a quick one). Anyway, even though were far away from each other, we still tried our best to celebrate simple and special occassions like this through chatting in the net or through phonecalls.

my favorite day

THANK GOD IT'S SUNDAY! Rest day after 6 days of heavy work as usual... I guess, like anyone of us think about, its time to enjoy ourselves! Obviously for me, i prefer to just stay inside the house and just relax...uhmmm, thats sometimes! Anyway, lost time hmmm... I never thought of this kind of posting back then till I have researched it so that I have posted so much of happy and well kind'a sad moments of my life!

Just about last Sunday 'd gang' went an around the world trip just for 1 whole day (believe it or not). To tell you, we have went to Europe, part of South America, Australia, some places in Africa, the USA itself ,and the rest of Asia. Whoaaa! Thats a lot to travel! I have all of my pictures taken for souvenirs of course, being photo addict myself hehe! It was fun, really fun! Together with your friends touring, it was a blast!

its me at the "grand opera house" sydney, australia and the above picture was at "eiffel tower," paris, france

my first ever blog

"live life the sweetest way you can...for you can only live once..."_ ivy

Hi...welcome to my blogger account... feel free to know and discover me! As the saying goes, "first impressions last!"

Finally, after series of research, research and research...blah and blah, I have my bogger account already! To start with, lots of workload today, i mean almost everyday but I still manage to check messages in my e-mail, watch my favorite series in the internet (thank God there is that such called technology or else my life would be so boring) and even sometimes chat with my friends! And after that, take my daily amount of vitamins, brush my teeth and then go to sleep afterwards. Well, that is part of my everyday routine to share with, (what a life!) at least for now! Ok, till my next blog...