to be a doctor

I’ve always wanted to be a doctor ever since I was a kid. I don’t know why, but doctors are just so appealing to me when I was younger. They looked so wonderful in their white coats, stethoscopes around their necks, the way they handle medical equipment and such. They’re really respectable people. And I guess that’s what drew me to the profession in the first place. But now that I’m older, I’m not that drawn anymore. I don’t know at what point I stopped wanting to be a doctor, but somehow my perception changed. Although I will always have respect for doctors, I just don’t think it’s the profession that’s right for me...

todays mood:

IVY is...

sober slash depressed slashed stressed ... Huwaahh!

goodbye Lola Tate...and thank you!

Its the burial day of my Lola... I prayed to God that she's happy now. I also wished that she will continue to guide and watch over us. I will never ever forget her in my heart.

Goodbye Lola Tate... and thank you for all your time of caring and loving. I will forever miss you so much. We love you!

remembering...

I kept on calling our house every night after work. And its now the 3rd day of my Lola's wake. I want to know what's happening there. I want to talk to my cousins to atleast lessen my sad feelings. I am always teary eyed at work. I kept on remembering my Lola...

soo sad...

It was the most shocking news I never wanted to hear about!

My ever beloved Lola Tate just died yesterday midnight... she is 84 years old. I just can't believed it myself. I tried to be calm and relax when dialing my fathers cellphone, but I am really shaking. I managed to dial it up and hear my fathers so quiet voice telling me about it. I fight my tears from falling but remembering my Lola just can't help my feelings. I burts into tears, I am trembling... I am so far away! Then my mother spoke to me, encouraging that its alright that she's now happy wherever she is now. My mind kept telling me that she's just inside her room, lying on her bed and just sleeping. The way I always see her on my last vacation in the Philippines. I am paranoid now!

Lola Tate, has been a loving and caring grandmother. She takes good care of me when I was young. I sleep in her bed at night, go with her attending Sunday mass and so many memories of her with me. When I grew up, she's always there. She also takes good care of my cousins. We love her so much!

a new house

My friend told me yesterday that she bought a brand new house and that she was so ecstatic because she paid the house in full and now she just has to wait 1 year and the house is theirs. Hearing her talk about her new house, it just makes me want to buy one of my own! After all, that’s one of the most basic things we need to secure in our life, to see to it that we have a roof over our heads, right? I think a house and lot is a very good investment. It doesn’t really have to be a big house with granite tile and big spacious rooms. A small one will do, just a simple house which serves its basic purpose. Hmmm… I guess I have to start thinking of this seriously this year.

another year to live life...

2009 is already over, we will leave 2009 the same as we had leave 2008 and accept 2010 with open hearts..of course, we have no choice or live like dreaming in a time machine. As for my self, I am really excited with 2010, it says that this is the year of the people who were born in 1982 and for that matter, I am one of them. Actually, I am excited about this year, excited of what life could offer me. I'm optimistic that it would really be great year. Of course there would be mixtures with good times and bad times. I promise myself that this year I'll be like an angel... and hope to feel like this cute and beautiful..ehhemm... and always feeling the...LOVE... so that there will always be peace in my life.
Good luck to all of us.

welcome 2010